New Years Kiss

25 minutes ago I celebrated New Years Eve. Me, the dogs, the fireworks outside, and my sleeping little boy curled up in his bed while Thomas the Train engine buzzed around the city with Sir Top 'am Hat played on his little DVD player.
As the ball dropped on NBC I was in the middle of Julie & Julia, quite frankly a wonderful movie. I hit the pause button as the fireworks grew louder and more frequent and walked to the back of the house, bent down and gave my new years kiss to the cutest boy in the world.
I almost cried.
I am not really sure why. My husband and I have spent 2 New Years together in 6 years, but for the past 3 I have kissed the same little man on the cheek and told the same little person I love them and Happy New Year. Each year he has changed so much there are no words. Thank God for pictures.
I don't know how many more years I will get to kiss the same little man on New
Years. I am sure one day far sooner then I will like, he will have friends or girlfriends, places to go and things to do. But for now, he will be my New Years kiss for as long as I can keep it that way.

May 2010 bless every family more so then 2009. May God be with you all. And my you find yourselves in a better place on the Eve of 2011 then you do today.

Happy New Year!

Midnight Snack

For those who weren't around for the 1st pregnancy, let me just say that things are following suit. Just like the 1st time, I am pretty much sick all day every day. Me and the porcelain white god have become close personal friends yet again. If I remember correcting for about 6 weeks of the 2nd trimester I was good, then it was right back to hugging the toilet.
That being said, I go much of the day without consuming a lot of food. With Kaje I lost about 5 lbs in the 1st Trimester, so far this time I have lost 10 lbs in 2 weeks. I needed to lose weight anyway so I am not concerned about this and neither is the doctor. However the only time I seem to feel hungry or be able to eat is around 11 pm.
Last night everyone was in bed and had been for quite some time, when I looked at my husband and told him I wanted some chips and salsa, needless to say he told me I could make it myself. I got up and made myself a snack, sat down in the den to eat it and low and behold here comes Kaje. With a little smirk on his face, and wide awake. He was hungry two!
The two of us watched an episode of Roseanne on Nick at Night, ate some chips and salsa, re-brushed our teeth and tucked back in for the night. I think it is knowing the great moments you get to have with your kids that makes all the puking so worth it!

Everything is OK!

Sorry it took so long to come back and write about what was going on. I really didn't want to write much because here at the house we really weren't talking about it. But here is the short version:

We found out we were expecting a little over a month ago. As a family we decided to only share the news with family. It seems lately so many people we know have suffered a lose and I hate that for everyone. Well, my 1st appt went well. But then the following day I had an ultrasounds that did not go so well. They found a gestational sac, but no baby. At the stage I was at that was ok to not see the fetal pole, but not ok that there was no yok sac present. My husband and I were of course very upset and with the exception of our parents and a few friends we kept it to ourselves. Well, I should have stayed off the Internet. That is where I discovered what is called a "blighted ovum" which is were you conceive, but the baby pass away very early in development but your body does not recognize it. It was a horrible feeling. To know that there really was a type of loss you could suffer that you still felt all the pregnancy symptoms. It made me even sadder for all of my friends I knew had suffered a loss as well because I could totally identify with what they were going through. The following Tuesday the Dr called and told me she felt it was not a viable pregnancy as well. I was set up for blood work and a follow up ultrasound. So that day and on Thanksgiving I went in for blood work. This Tuesday while checking in for my ultra sounds I received a call from the Dr about the blood work. The numbers were not positive. At that stage your hormone levels should double every 48 hrs. I only had a rise of 6000. Waiting for the ultrasounds was like impending dome. Thankfully my husband takes everything in stride and said no matter what we will have another baby, it just may not be in July.
We finally went back for the ultrasound. I couldn't really speak. I just laid there and let the tech do her thing. Like the last ultrasounds the tech was very quite and didn't say much. She then told me she was looking at my ovaries which is what the last tech did before she told me there was no baby. Then the tech dropped and lowered the screen and said "let me show you what I can see". I couldn't do it. I burst into tears on the table and looked away and asked if there was anything there, because if there wasn't I didn't want to see it. I didn't want to know that my body had done everything right but the baby hadn't made.
To my surprise she grab my hand and said "NO! Everything is fine! Why didn't you tell me you were worried I would have told you 1st off that the baby was there and we could see the heartbeat."
I was such a great feeling. I of course had an emotional break down on the table, but am thrilled that everything looks good and our family should be growing in July!
My heart is still with all those woman who the news is not as positive. Although things went ok, for days I just knew this wasn't it. It was a horrible feeling. I wish there was something I could do to make people feel better when they experience that loss. But I know that there isn't. Nothing anyone was telling me during those two weeks of wondering made me feel any better.

Well, that is the story. We of course are very excited things turned out ok. It will be one of those life experiences that will always keep those people in my prayers.

the Internet...NOT always a good thing

We have some stuff going on here at the Herring house hold that I am not 100% ready to revile to the world. I has become a very trying time for my husband and I. K of course takes everything like any almost 3yr old would. There were some test run the other day that of course produced inconclusive results. Some days I wish I was a Doctors and could just run to the office and run as many test and I damn well pleased till I had my answer! But in stead us without an MD resort to the Internet. Googling symptoms or ailments, maybe symptoms, symptoms that disappeared and whole other slew of googling. One site says it is rare and unlikely list a group of factors that of course do not apply, then another site says something completely opposite.

Then there is the waiting game. Can't call your dr back till Monday. Can't do a lot about it till then. Don't really want to worry a bunch of people so you don't want to tell anyone what is going on. Just keeping it in the family and waiting for news.

I pray everything is ok. Whatever it is, it is. It is just one of those moments in life where the internet was NOT THE BEST place to go looking for answers.

Breeding Lizards

There is a fine Art to breeding Lizards. Yes you read that correctly, Breeding Lizards. Apparently, you must live in an area where it is still 70 degrees in November. Have a plush out door space with a large deck that keeps birds, and other large animals from eating them. On the cool days you must a rental house that has a WHOLE somewhere that lets them all come in and live in your house!!!

I swear we are BREEDING LIZARDS! The Scotts are coming this weekend and we have a lizard infestation. Now that being said, I must say it is an infestation I can handle, but at the same time I am kind of over it. The Lizards and tree Frogs were fun this summer, but now I am ready for them to be done with. However, in the past 2 weeks I have probably thrown out 8 that were about an inch long, and 2 that were 2-3 inches long and about 3 weeks ago we had a Large one, roughly 6 inches (those numbers are the body length not with tail). On top of that, no telling how many we have seen in the garage and caught in the back yard for fun during that same time period.

Seriously people! Lizards are taking over!!!

Well at least Kaje likes them, the dogs find them entertaining, and I get a work out trying to get them out of the house =)

Hey Mommy! Where have you been?

Well, where haven't we been?

Life has been insanely busy! Hard to say when I only work Part Time now instead of Full time, but you would be amazed how quickly I have filled my life back up!!! Kercher is growing so fast and requires a lot of attention and does not exactly listen when I ask him to be still or to go to his play room. Which by the way I will add, I will NEVER not have a playroom as long as I have small children EVER again! Greatest thing EVER!

I have been attempting to scrapbook, coupon, save money, get ready to finish my masters, and a whole slew of other things, all the while still not seeing my husband much (even though we are at a shore command). I will say it is WAY better then being on a ship and going out to sea all the time, but still not as great as a regular 9-5. We do however LOVE that Daddy gets to do pickups and drop offs from school and the sitter quite a bit. He does come home EVERYDAY which is a vast improvement, and although he ha been home now for close to 6 months I still like seeing him everyday (which any wife has to admit when you are use to not having your husband around all the time you have to wonder if you will want to kill him a few months into having him home everyday). but so far so good.

I have PROMISED a lot of readers a real coupon blog, so that is coming. i have been saving INSANE amounts of money at the store lately!!!

Well for now it is back to work, but i will post something soon!

H1N1 What to do????

So...if you know me you know I AM PRO VACCINE!!!! I think people who do not vaccinate there child ARE CRAZY! And that they should not attend the same schools as my child. I think this because our generation has become complacent (much like the American people, but that is a Blonde is Write Blog)and we do not know what it is to watch kids die from the mumps, OR be crippled by polio. We take for granted the medical advancements that have been afforded to us. There has been NO MEDICAL PROOF that vaccines and Autism are linked. Most people believe that the additive in Vaccines that causes Autism is Thermosil, which FYI is NO LONGER IN VACCINES! I support Alternative Vaccines schedules. It isn't something I did with my child, however there are really no real test out there to say that the issue with vaccines is how many our kids get. So I do think more Dr's should allow parents to use an alternative vaccination schedule where that child received one shot at a time. That is your decision, I would rather you vaccinate your child on an alternative schedule then not at all, and I think a lot of people would feel the same way.

But I am at a crossroads with H1N1...


We have never vaccinated Kaje for the flu. Hell I have never received a flu vaccine. My hubby and I are hoping to expand our family sooner then later and I do not want to get the vaccine because they do not know that effects on an unborn fetus. SO then I have to ask myself if I would not expose my unborn (I am not even preggo) child with the vaccine why would I expose my child that I do have now?

I just don't know.

Many people say, well the flu vac is "new" every year and it is based on the same principle as that....well I don't vaccinate my child for the flu...never have. It is the Flu. people do die from the flu but most people have other conditions that contribute to that. I am not saying it doesn't happen, just that it is something we have chosen not to do. then again the highest % of people to die from H1N1 is preggo woman, so maybe i am making the wrong decision....

I just don't know. I think vaccines are good. That more people WIN from getting a vaccination than lose. I think that parents not vaccinating their children with the MMR and POLO is going to start some ill effects...it already has. I believe that overall vaccination is good...so why am I so hesitant to get this vaccination?

A month ago if you had asked, I would have told you we would have all be in line that day! But now, now I don't know. I have watched kids have it and been a ok, I have known Preggo woman who have been exposed and not flinched. It is a tough decision for any family.

One I never thought would be tough for me.

The hubby and I are still talking....he says lets get it...but then again he says maybe we shouldn't. What ever we decide we have to believe we made the right decision...that we are 100% behind what we did. Because if something goes the other way what will we do then?

Life is greater with a child, but at the same time you make the choices for their future...there is no greater pressure then that.